Saturday, May 31, 2008

After the funeral on Sat, the gals and I went out. Ben dropped us at AMK Hub where we had lunch and saw a movie. We saw Sex and the City which both Shanice and I have seen all the seasons b4, so we caught Huiyi up with everything while waiting for the show to start.

OMG, I hated and loved the show at the same time. It was so good to see the 4 back together again and there were so many part when I just started bawling! I hated that it was overall it was still the same old story line. How many times do u give someone a chance? How many? R u telling me that I should forgive him over and over again for screwing up and treating me like SHIT b4 I get my happily ever after?

NO!

Its prob because of what I have experienced and finally being able to walk away after being hurt so many time .... sigh.

After the movie, my sis came to join us for coffee as she was bored at home. We stayed out till about 9+pm b4 calling it a nite. We had been up since 7.30am and we were all really tired. Sad day ....

My Condolences

I feel sad and numb. I know that it is wrong to do it that way, but in a scary way I understood why it had to be done. I'm sure in the back of her mind she did think of the consequences but when u are really down (and I mean REALLY down) nothing else matters but easing your pain. Sometimes u think ending it would be better for everyone else in the long run. Yes, they might be sad in the beginning but eventually they would forget about u and maybe even hate you for it. But it is ok because u are not worthy of their love.

Have u ever been so sad that just the mere though of something gives u an anxiety attack. Your heart starts beating uncontrollably, u start to hyperventilate and tears start welling in your eyes. Have u ever just stayed in bed, hiding away from the world because u think the world has forgotten about you. When your mind is telling u one thing but your heart totally disagree. When crying brings physical ache to your heart and u are gasping for breath.

Most ppl will not understand and I hope that they NEVER will. I don't think there is a cure, just learning to live with it and hope that your mind stays that little bit stronger.

I felt sad for him and I cried, I still cry when I think about it. I wish him all the best from my broken heart and mind because that is all that is left and honestly it hasn't been whole in a long long time.

Don't hate me, don't console me, don't talk try to reason with me .... Don't, just DON'T.

Sunday, May 25, 2008

Hello Kitty Online

I found out a couple mths back that Hello Kitty was going to have a MMORPG called Hello Kitty Online and I was pretty excited about it ... it meant interacting with my fave Sanrio characters, Little Twin Stars! I signed up for the closed beta testing but wasn't chosen the first time round, however, a few days ago, they added more beta testers and I was one of them!

So basically I have been MIA for the past few days because I have been playing this really cute game. Yes, call me childish and immature but OMG, the game is uber cute! Here are some screenshots from the game.


There's me with Kiki. I was so excited when I found him :)




Then I found Lala!




This is a screenshot from one of the mini games that is part on the MMORPG.




This is my farm with the hse that took FOREVER to build!



Unfortunately, because this is only a beta version, there is only so much of the game that can be played. My character would be deleted and I would have to start all over again when the open beta starts :( However, u can bet that I would .... there is the LTS hse in Sanrio Land that can't be accessed at this time :)

Monday, May 19, 2008

Out and about!

Was going to spend the holidays at home doing absolutely nothing but then my bro called and said that he could not make it to The Chronicles of Narnia: Prince Caspian preview, whether we wanted to go?

Of cos we wanted! I liked the 1st movie a lot and was looking forward to the 2nd. Furthermore, it was free and we get to watch it b4 it was released! We headed to my bro's place to get the tics b4 heading out.

It wasn't too crowded for a public holiday and we managed to make it to the cinema with time to spare. Because it was free seating, there was a line outside waiting to get in. When the doors open, that was when the pushing and shoving started. Luckily my sis and I managed to get in and find pretty good seats.

The movie is great! Love the soundtrack and it was nice seeing the same actors, now older. The special effects and fight scenes made this a fun and exciting movie to watch. The movie was quite long and it was 6+pm by the time we got done.

We decided to do a little shopping and I dragged my sis to the Sanrio shop at Taka. Here's what I got!


A cover for the tumbler I bought a few mths back.




Here's the tumbler :)




And a clock!



Spent more than I should today but I needed the protection for my bottle if I am ever going to bring it out to use. As for the clock .... well, I need 2 alarms and my other one has died a long time ago :)

We then headed back to Hougang where my sis had her dinner. I did not eat as I was still stuffed with popcorn from earlier. By the time we reached home, it was 9+pm. Should prob head to bed soon, Another day tmr ...

Sunday, May 18, 2008

Crochet

I told my sis that I would make her a scarf when she was with me getting yarn for Adela's blanket. I told her that I would use what was leftover but the only color I had left was white and she didn't want a while scarf. So, she went to get more yarn ....


In the process ... She wanted a long thin scarf.




A close up view of the stitch. I used Double Stitch throughout.




The finished scarf!



It was quite an easy project. I started early in the week and finished on Sun.

My sis said that she was going to wear it here .... haha, I think the yarn turned out to be thicker than expected so its going to be really warm if she wears it here.

Saturday, May 17, 2008

Long, long Sat!

Woke up at 7am as I had an interview scheduled, well, it was more of a "let's show u what we do" and an evaluation. My dragged my sis along for breakfast and also because I needed her to bring along my comfy heels. I had planned for us to go do some shopping after I got done.

We made our way down to Chinatown where my thing was and had McDonald's for breakfast. It has been along time since I had my Sausage and Egg McMuffin. OMG, after checking out the calories on it, its going to be a long time b4 I have it again.

After breakfast, I made my way to the office while my sis hung ard waiting for me. I was quite impressed with the company but it was only later that I realized it was a multi level marketing company. However, by the time I found out, it was too late.... It was also only on the way to the second destination that I found out that they only earn commission and nothing else.

Guess I am too nice to just walk away ... I just can't say no!

Huiyi had text me b4 telling me that their trip to JB had been cancelled and whether I wanted to meet up with them. I thought that I would be able to drag myself out of the grp but I just could not. Even towards the end, I stayed to listen to the guy trying to convince me that this job was the job that would pave the way for me ... blah blah blah ....

It was only after it started to feel like a lecture that I finally had enough and told him I had to go. I ran off, calling my sis and apologizing profusely (I had told her earlier that I was going to be really late). By that time, she had already met up with her friend and was going to catch a movie. So I in turn called my friends and we went to catch a movie too.

By this time, I had been in my heels for more than 7hrs, standing about 5 of them and my feet were KILLING me. I could not meet with my sis first as her movie was starting and I was still quite far away. So I decided to just bear with it, after all, we were going to a movie and I would be able to sit. My sis was going to meet me later, just a few more hrs, just a few more hrs.

We watched Made of Honor ... thanks to Huiyi's boss for the free tics :) ... and it was bad but it isn't going to be one of those romantic comedies that I would watch over and over again. McDreamy was dreamy though :) I just have one question ... how can he be a Duke if his father is still alive?

After the movie we went to HK Cafe. Thankfully after resting my feet during the movie, I was able to hobble my way to the restaurant. My sis wanted to grab dinner with her friend b4 meeting us. We called KL and he joined us too.


Shanice, Evon, Huiyi and I. My sis had yet to arrive ....



We reached the restaurant at about 9/10+pm and my sis finally arrived at about 11+pm. I FINALLY got outta my shoes and I had to say it was a HUGE relieve. We chatted to about 1+am before we finally called it quits. We all have been up for more than 16hrs and we could not take it anymore! So, it was....

Home Sweet Home!

P.S. Thanks to Evon for the pic!

Thursday, May 15, 2008

I think depression is contagious, I'm not sure if I'm the one spreading it or the one who got infected.

Don't really know what is getting me down Life has been getting me down. I don't have the drive. I want them to want me but yet I don't. Maybe its for the best cos then there would be no regrets. But it feels so nice to be wanted, doesn't it?

My diet has been going pretty well but then soon it would be the hurdle that I just can't seem to jump. I think that is what is making me sad too. I've have never managed to stay in the 50+ kg range for long, they are usually short term and then after that, I just eat and eat. Not binging but enough that I would gain some of what I've lost. I have never been in the mid 50s or lows. I wonder if this time I would be able to do it .....

And it doesn't help when all my parents want to do is

COOK! COOK! COOK!

Wait, nope, they are also planning a buffet tomorrow!

ARGH!

I of cos said no, but its too late my brain knows what my stomach is missing. I wonder when my dad goes back to work, that will put an end to him cooking lunch.

Work .... sigh .... in the process but then if I get a job, I'm going to have to join in on lunches. Yes, that is depressing. Ppl think u are weird if u don't eat but then will be more than happy to comment about your weight when u gain a few. Say "no" one too many times and u will be the outcast ... guess who they will talk about during lunch?

Tomorrow? More bullshitting to do ....

"Where do u see yrself in 3/5 years?"

Ans: "Hoping to be able to smile about my life ...."

Sunday, May 11, 2008

Mother's Day Lunch

After getting home at 4+am last nite, I did not get much sleep b4 having to wait up this morning for our Mother's Day lunch.

They had planned to go to Tung Lok East Coast but when my mom called yesterday, it was fully booked. Her second choice was a steamboat buffet that was a first come first served, no reservations allowed place at Tiong Bahru.


My sis and I playing with the camera in the car while waiting for our parents. Dress was given to me from my sis, bought from Beijing!



We went to pick my bro and Ash before making our way down. We dropped them off to get us a seat while we went to park the car. However, they found out that the steamboat buffet that we wanted was only during dinner. For lunch it was a porridge/congee buffet. They didn't think my mom would want it so they went to the restaurant next door to get a table.

By the time we got there, they were already seated. Talk about irony ... after a week of authentic Beijing food, we were now about to have our meal at Lao Beijing. But the greatest news?

NOT BUFFET!


Lao Beijng is part of the Tung Lok grp so I knew the lunch would not be bad.




I thought it was decorated quite nicely. Unique and not chi-na at all.




My Sis with one of her new buys.




The little snack/appetizer on every table. Its long beans with peppers and tofu .... not bad, a little sour, sweet.




Spicy Beef Noddles. Think its the oil that made it spicy. It was ok.




Dan Dan Mian. Not at all what we expected. It was in a soup! I thought it was supposed to be dry? Nothing fantastic.




Chicken with Peanuts. Not bad, I ate most of the chilies and spring onions.




My fave ... 小笼包! They look a little too triangular but they tasted great. The skin was thin but none of them broke. There was enough soup in each 包 and the meat inside was tender. Just wish they were bigger!




Ginger and Vinegar that goes with the 小笼包 but I ate a lot of it throughout the whole meal.




Some steamed 包. Plain, nothing special. Might have been better if they had been fried :)




Braised Duck. This was not bad too. The duck was tender and tasty ... I ate most of the bamboo shoots, and spring onions in this dish :)




Ma Po Tofu. Yummy. The tofu were fried individually first so each had a firm outer layer and it wasn't all mush.




Shrimp .... u guess it, I attacked the spring onions here too. The shrimp were nice and crisp and we were given a satisfying portion.




Next was this Spicy Beef Soup/Gravy thing. It was really spicy and the beef was quite tender. Love the bean sprouts and zucchini.




We then waited for our last dish and my bro got bored ....




So he decided to insert the chilies from the previous dish into his chopstick.




His finished project .... what a childish thing to do, but it did entertain all of us, even my mom who offered the chilies on her plate.



We waited and waited and our rice dish still hadn't arrive. So we decided to just cancel the order. We paid the bill and then it was off for dessert!

We made our way to Tiong Bahru Market for some ice cold desserts. I decided that I didn't need it so I just had a couple bites from my sis and bro's bowl.

As we were walking around the food center after that, look what we spotted ....


Its that store that was featured on the Channel 8 show "Buzzing Cashiers" It did have a pretty long line for 3pm on a Sun. Unfortunately we were all too full and did not want to wait in line either.



It was then back home ..... I think I need a nap.

Saturday, May 10, 2008

Non BBQ

So, since the bbq was cancelled, the girls decided that they still wanted to go out. I wasn't too keen at first as I was still really upset about my plans falling through and I wasn't in a socializing mood. I just wanted to wallow in my misery.

However, I realized that I did not want to stay at home even more! Did not want to have to face my mom at home. So I begged to be allowed to join after telling them that I didn't want to. Luckily they graciously say yes :)

It was a long discussion on where we wanted to go but we finally decided that we would go to the airport to have sushi. Shanice drove her Ferlorry to come pick us up and we made our way there.

We reached at about 7pm and then proceeded terminal hopping to see all the restaurants/food options. WT called and asked to joined so it was another person to our group. We finally decided on Sakae Sushi was it was the least fattening and we were craving Jap.

Luckily we did not opt for the Supper Buffet as we calculated it would only be worth it if we ate a total of 50 plates of 2 piece sushi among the 5 of us. So instead we ordered ala carte which had great variety and less rice (carbs are a killer!) The meal turned out to be cheaper than what the buffet would have cost, we were all full and we ate the stuff we liked without the rice.

It was then off to Coffee Bean for round 2 ...


The Flourless Chocolate cake that looked fascinating and it tasted pretty good. It was made of fudge and biscuits. I expected something more of a cake texture.




"Tiramisu". We wanted a basis for comparison but this was HORRIBLE! U can't call this Tiramisu cos its NOT! LC and Shanice, I have confidence that yrs would taste 10x better!




Shanice, Me, Huiyi and Evon ..... WT was the photographer :)



We stayed and chat till about 4am before making our way home. Parking costs us $15. Shanice's cashcard didn't have enough $ but luckily Evon had one in her wallet.

Shanice dropped me off first and on the way to Evon's it started pouring and I was told visibility was really bad. Thankfully everyone made it safe and sound home. Another fun nite .. thanks!

P.S. Thanks to Evon for the grp pic :)

Dear All,

Sorry for the non bbq. Hopefully we will get another chance to get together.

Friday, May 9, 2008

FUCK!!!!

The BBQ that I have been planning for ages is down the drain because my mom decided that they want to come home tonite.

The ONE thing I told my mom was that I am planning to have a bbq on sat and not to come home on that day. I would be drinking and I did not want to have to leave the party to go pick them up. I guess my mistake was to tell her to either come back on Fri or Sun.

What would u know? She decides to come back on FRIDAY! I really did not think that she would do that to me. First of all, that means they would only be gone a week. They ALWAYS go on vacation for 10 days or more, why the hell must she choose this time around when she knows I have plans to come home early?

Don't tell me they want to save $. I'm pretty sure 1 day at the slot machines can easily pay for their stay.

Nothing to do there? Yeah, because there is so much more things to do in Singapore. Like slot machines for my mom, junk collecting for my dad and Tudou for my sis. That is so much more exciting than being on vacation in an Olympic city.

Of all the things my mom has done, I have to say that this is one of the lowest! ONE day, ONE day! They could have stayed one more nite, leave on Sat nite and come home on Sun morning, is that too much to ask?

Monday, May 5, 2008

Ben's China Apartment





Sunday, May 4, 2008

Adela's baby shower!

*updated with group pic thanks to Evon!*

I was bored and wanted to do something special for Adela so I went out to get some yarn and decided to crochet a blanket for her. It took me a long time to decide what color but with my sis help, we decided on it. Wanted to do a neutral color but could not find one with the right thickness and softness.


So it was pink. Not very original, I know. It took 3 pink and 1 white.




About 3/4 way done.




The final product which took me about 6 days to finish.



I was running late as I had to go over to the mall across my hse to get a paper bag to put my present in. Try as I might, I could not find anything babyish at home to wrap my gift and this time aluminium foil isn't going to work.

There were so many cars on the road and the parking lot was filled! As I was driving around the parking lot, I finally noticed a car coming out and I was thanking my lucky stars. However, it was only AFTER I reversed my car in (I heard a honk but I swear I did not know it was directed to me) that someone signalled to me angrily that she was waiting for that lot.

OMG, I felt so bad and scared. I was prepared to give her back her spot but there was another empty lot that pulled out as I was reversing in so she took that one. I wanted to apologized again but I chickened out and ran b4 she came out of her car.

I think I have driving anxiety ..... It didn't stop there as while I was on route at a traffic light, there was road work on the lane I was in so I had to cut into another. For one thing, drivers here are not exactly friendly (as proven earlier) and also, I am driving my mom's bb. I was going to be stuck in my lane forever if I did not force my way out but at the same time I did not want to be a victim of road rage. Luckily I managed to make my way out without any incident.

Well, I finally got there and most of my friends were already there. Adela has grown quite a but since the last time we saw her and she looks really pretty.



Here she is sleeping.




The group of classmates that made it.



The food was pretty good and it was my first real meal since my parents left. Don't pity me, I have been losing weight even with snacking!

We stayed for quite awhile chit chatting as quite alot of us showed up. We then went over to AMK Hub's New York, New York for round 2. Spend about 2 hrs there b4 Evon had to leave as she is celebrating Mother's Day tonite with her family.

Me? I made my way home with yesterday's newspapers that KL got for me!

Saturday, May 3, 2008

My parents and sis have finally left for Beijing and won't be back until next Sun (I hope). Have not been doing much other than being on Tudou watching Grey's Anatomy. I think I have been watching too much as last nite I had a HOT dream about McDreamy ... drool!

Drove out earlier to get some milk and wanted to get today's newspapers but I guess I was too late and they have all sold out. It got me really pissed as my mom decided that because I can't wake up at 6am to bring in the newspapers in case it rains, I should not get it.

Let's see how many FUCKING days it rains from now till they come back.

Sorry, I'm just pissed that I could not get my papers ....

Anyways, the other thing that has been keeping me up is that I have been busy crocheting. Give me anything square/rectangular and I have not problem but don't ask me to crochet a sweater for u ... ain't going to happen.

Will be going to Christine and August's place tomorrow for their bb's 1 mth celebration. Well, it has been more than one mth but because Adela was premature, they decided to wait till she was stronger. Can't wait to see them and I hope that they like the present ....